looking glass self

karma, you beotch. yesterday was so great that you had to make today AWFUL to even it out. you know its ironic, i am my own antagonist in the pursuit to make those i love happy.

dei nergerstromble

today trisha and i went to a german movie on campus. for some weird reason i thought there would be english captions, which was a foolish assumption apparently. well anyway, from what i understood...

Siegfried, a midevil german hottie, was totally being pursued on by these two royal "schwestern" which means sisters. i think one of them was some sort of warrior and the other was a princess who loved red lipstick. okay so, they had a dual wedding and the princess ended up marrying Siegfried and the warrior married a curly-haired man who she didn't even like. OH! THEN there was this crazy man who was all "i can change my head" and he morphed into whoever he wanted and i think at some point morphed into the curly hair man and slept with the girl warrior, a scene in which i am still contemplating the relevance of. right, so then the schwestern kept having these intense encounters, which i can only imagine were verbal battles for the love of Siegfried. here is where it gets tricky because i went to the bathroom and apparently missed a very important part because when i came back Siegfried was dead. so princess red lipstick was crying over his body and 2 men, i think one of them was curly hair man, were battling it out and then warrior girl draws HER sword and then i foolishly looked down to grab a cheeto and then i look back up and there is a head rolling around on the floor so i scream a little bit. i think warrior girl cut off her husband's head because he killed Siegfried, who was the secret recipient of the warrior's unrequited love. then everyone just kind of looks at the decapitated curly head rollin around and no one even does anything to warrior because apparently she is allowed to cut off heads with no punishment, which i thought was a little shady of the legal system. *cut* to Siegfried's funeral, the corpse is floating away in a row boat on the lake and some archers shoot firery arrows at it with impressive aim, and it starts to burn. towns people are mourning on the shore when OUT OF NOWHERE the warrior pops up out of the row boat where the firey corpse is and, in a fit of desperate loveless martyrdom, stabs herself in the gut and collapses into the flames! the observers on the shore remain unimpressed and then, that is the end.

i quite liked it. even though i only understood one word throughout the movie, which was "schwester" and trisha reports to me that the 2 girls who i thought were schwestern are in fact not related. whatevs.

good things happened today

1. i slept in
2. i received a half tuition scholarship that i can apply to the study abroad!!
3. i went to the gym
4. i caved and bought some wonderful high-waisted shorts. so in.
5. i ate a chick-fil-a sandwich
6. i got a library card that is labeled "imagination passport"

i donno much about clothes but my hair looks fierce!

today i wore this fancy lancome perfume that i bought 2 summers ago and it smells like vanilla and summer and is a touch too strong. eesh, maybe there is a reason i haven't worn in in 2 years.

tomorrow i make the down-payment for vienna. i'm going. i really am! i could not be more excited. it consumes my thoughts and day-dreams and night-dreams and i can't believe i'm finally making it happen...but ugh. hunter is trying to put on a happy face be supportive but keeps muttering comments and forcing me into depressing talks about how detrimental this will be to our relationship. its starting to give me a headache. or is it this perfume?

raw fish

my my my. i learned a long time ago that relationship promises are worth a penny at the nicklecade. not that i don't want to believe in those pretty promises that lovers spit out in moments of blissful optimism, i just know better. and a little hurt now is better than the possibility of a lot of hurt later. am i right?

billy joel keeps asking me "don't you know that only fools are satisfied?"

every word of this song is right

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight (tonight)
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right(you're right)

You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.

And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through

Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

frick

Nothing brings more shame to my heart than my sociology grade.