WHEW! i have risen from my death bed! today is a great day. i always forget how blessed i am to have my health until i am stripped of it and left to die in my claustrophobic throw-up room. anyway, i am trying to write this paper that is due...4 days ago, but all i can think about is COSTA RICA IN 11 DAYSSSSSS!!! with this certain boy i am crazy about. its so fun to have been dating for a year and a half and still not be able to get enough of each other.

oh yeah and for all you peeps thinking about getting married, i only have one piece of advice: elope. wedding planning is so hard.

he's just not that into you? DON'T SEE IT. not only was it completely stupid- it was disgusting, adulterous, and just honest to goodness disturbing for any girl in any stage of life. on the risk of sounding dramatic, i literally had tears streaming down my face at one point in the movie theater, thinking that is what relationships in this twisted world boil down to. i was so sick leaving the theater. we should have walked out. i'm only telling you guys so you can consider yourselves warned. others will probably see this movie and giggle at the over-exploited gay humor and furrow their brows at the inappropriate parts, but in the end cast those images and adulterous themes into the back of their heads only to resurface in an unexplained relationship paranoia or, worse, be so jaded and affected that they exhibit the behavior.

ok, i realize that i'm probably going to break a leg jumping off this high horse, but i strongly feel that this movie is everything wrong with the direction our society is headed. in the least pretentious manner possible, i BEG, PLEAD, IMPLORE that you do not support this movie.

the scariest thing in the world is birth control. scratch that. the scariest thing in the world is starting birth control months before the biggest day of your life. my doctor is putting me on nuvaring and i was fine with that until i came home and starting reading forums about what people are saying about it. apparently its going to turn me into a crazy fat biotch. i think i am having a panic attack...its making me weigh my options here...would having an accidental baby be so bad?

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thought of the day: why are all indie chicks so ugly?

well this is a conundrum. i can't decide what i hate more: being hungry or being fat. and that is why i will forever be somewhere in between.

bills bills bills! i'm not ready to be an adult because FREAK there are so many unexpected payments! i thought i was doing pretty well financially until i had to pay my phone bill, car insurance, safety and emmissions inspection, registration fees, two parking tickets, utilities to TWO different houses, and of course the necessary hair appointment. most of those financial responsibilities are linked to this stinkin truck.

lately i have really wanted to change the world. and i figure i should start with something i have deep invested interests in, so i have decided to

i reaallyyyy want starbucks today. i don't know why i am wasting my time blogging when i have so much to do. what the, aubrey!