it's a long ways away

whoa whoa whoa WHOA
the eve of my departure.
auf wiedersehen, amerika!

(yeah thats how you spell america in german, go figure)
(don't fret blog freunde- there are many blogs to come from vienna)

could i do this?

well well well. after a long day of all work and no play (excluding lunch with my dear friend kenny), i found myself in the brimhall at 4pm for a media plan presentation to be followed by a night in the computer lab to bust out my 13 page international communications paper. after hours of concentrated work i made my final corrections to the monstrosity and dropped it in my professors box at approximately 9:26pm. i completed FOUR finals today, and i must admit i feel completely accomplished and validated as a student and human being. on my way home from the brimhall i picked up some chinese food and chopsticks, threw some comfy pajamas on, and turned on sex and the city. all i'm sayin is, maybe i could do this. i could see it all now- me as a corporate professional working for a prominent advertising firm. single, sexy, mature, independent. working till late on the Jaguar ad campaign. driving home to my small classy apartment, getting chinese delivered, and settling down for a few hours of primetime television in my slippers and undies...i like it, i like it a lot.

lots of blog

oh no. today i started packing and it was probably the worst move i have ever made. it quickly induced severe anxiety and i haven't stopped crying for more than a 2 hour period today. i am just so scared and anxious about this summer. i get so lonely here, surrounded by my friends and boyfriend and roommates and family. how am i going to fare when i am all alone across the world?

my mom always says i bite off more than i can chew. i pray that i don't choke this summer.

c'est la vie

cars, boys, good grades.

who needs em?

P.S.

i don't know if you recall my resolution to never eat a doughnut again in my life, but lately i have been offered a lot of doughnuts and i have stayed true to my values! at the flash game hunter kept offering me these delightful little sugar-coated doughnut delights-i said no. at the hospital there were some tempting sprinkled doughnuts that my friend suggested we indulge in- i said no. yesterday at work some guy's girlfriend brought in fluffy doughnuts slathered in chocolate frosting- i said NO PLEASE NO JUST STOP!

check me out, i DO have some self-control. i never thought i would see the day. this is one small step for aubrey, one giant leap for aubrey's diet.

a plea for forgiveness

dear mr. car,

an apology is in order. i realize now the error of my ways and i cannot forgive myself for what i have done to you. for the past eight months of our relationship you have been the generous giver and i have been the taker. even through your apparent sickness, your old age, and obvious physical ailments due to my neglect, you have been the staple of my traveling existnece- and for that i am eternally indebted. i apologize for trying to drown out your cries for belt attention by blasting crappy mainstream rap music. i apologize for not taking the time to clean you out once this semester- not once! i apologize for the expanding crack in your windshield that i have no intentions to rememedy. i apologize for driving fast and furious and straining your old, tender insides.and most importantly, mr.car, i apologize for crashing you into another unsuspecting car yesterday. thank-you for continuing to run and i hope someday we will be able to open the driver-side door again, that would be nice. someone please revoke my liscence before i hurt more innocent cars. it just isn't fair to the automobile world.

sincerely and with deep regret,

aubrey

2 l8 i quit!

ahaha
my boss just said, in complete seriousness, that if i weren't quitting in 2 days i would be fired.
hahaha

self-destruct

today may have been the worst day of the semester. i did nothing productive (big no-no during finals week). i saw a dog get hit by a car. i dropped hunter at the airport and then came home and slept for a couple hours trying to kick this awful mood. my dreams were wrought with visions of trisha coming back and hunter cheating on me, both were depressing to remember when i woke up. THEN i realize its snowing outside and my depression deepens. then i went to get my hair done, was at the salon from 5pm to 930pm, during which i look at my phone and notice a missed call from hunter who is now in Indianapolis. anyway, this cheered me up a bit and i called him back promptly in hopes he would say something cute like "i miss you already" or i would even settle for a classic "i love you," nay, instead it was "guess where i am?! hooters?!" needless to say, after a long, pms-y, depressing day, this did not resonate well with me . BUT i did not have even a moment to express this because obviously he was too preoccupied to talk to me and basically hung up after that. alright so, i stick it out at the salon and the towel comes off and lo and behold i HATE my hair. its orange and smells bad. so i pay a lot of money and leave the salon with horrible horrible hair and come home to sit alone in my PJs.

anyway, tomorrow morning i have to go buy tampons and then go to a review and then go get my hair fixed and avoid calls from my boyfriend who is on probation right now. then i will pack and write papers and study for tests until my brain falls out and then go to sleep and hopefully avoid bursting into tears.

oh heavens, please let the weather be nice tomorrow or i fear i will self-destruct.

stuffaubreylikes.com

i wish i had one of those cool trendy blogs that are written in second or third person (you know with the indefinite or generic referents) and are about boring things written in a clever way to make them interesting. you all know what i'm talking about, and a few of you even have posted attempts at it, characterized by unnatural sounding diction and google images splattered throughout. instead, my blog is just a collegiate version of my whiney high-school livejournal. oh well, may as well indulge.

mmm right now i could really go for some beef jerky. or some charleston chews.

like a black widow

sometimes i wish i had other people's problems. i'm so sick of mine.


you know what i mean?

yeah, delete

significant things have been happening that i have neglected to post about...

1. took my first ride on a motorcycle
2. bought a new camera
3. got paid to watch general conference (saturday session at work)
4. swore to never eat a doughnut again in my life
5. i wrote out the words "i love you"
6. watched a cat puke in my aunt's yard
7. checked the weather in Vienna on a regular basis

yeah so, some of those things (#3+) weren't really all that significant but i felt inclined to share them because they popped into my head.

tomorrow i need to call my dad, do a bajillion hours of homework, meet up with some guy to fix my computer, go to sushi with trisha, clean my room, buy a memory card for my camera, buy chocolate covered cinamin bears, and do more homework.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i just laughed for an hour

hahahahahaha

don't ask me how i found that.

rilo kiley, have you been reading my diary?

And sometimes when you're on
You're really on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy