salt

my heart is winning the battle and in the end, when i'm left stumbling around in a state of complete disconnect, my brain will scoff at my heart and say "i told you so."
i don't even know what i'm doing any more.
everyone is sick of hearing about it, i'm tired of talking about it, i'm exhausted from wrestling with myself about it. the resources have been expended and if i am required to spend one more emotional penny i will break the bank.