dreams dreams

this morning i woke up and even though the white walls of my room were reflecting the glow of the morning sun, sparkling snow was lazily descending from a luminous sky, and i had conveniently slept through my least favorite class, i felt a wave of anxiety because it was the last place i wanted to be in the entire time-space contiuum. so i layed in my bed, visualizing the most ideal place i could be and now i will attempt to transcribe this magnificent vision into words:

i slowly wake up in a king-size canopied bed with white sheets and a pale green down comforter. the sun is glimmering off dew-soaked trees outside large, unpaneled windows to my left. i roll over to glance at the alarm clock which reads "9:30" and spring out of bed in a panic because where are the kids?! i wrap myself in my robe and race down the spiral staircase to find my husband and identical blonde twin boys (skyler and ___) playing video games in the family room. the remnants of my husband's endearing attempt to cook breakfast are strewn across the kitchen. without diverting thier eyes from the TV my 5-yr old boys holler "morning mom!" almost in unison. my husband pauses the game and my sons mumble complaints and make pretend gagging noises while we exchange a morning hug. i wander into the kitchen, grab a cold pancake from the table, throw a few of the dishes into the sink, then head back into the family room, snatch the fourth nintendo controller, and proceed to kick my family's ace in mario kart.

obviously it was much better in my head. the point is, this morning i woke up and wanted nothing more than to skip this awkward, capricious time in my life and get to the good stuff. even if it is nothing like the scenario i created above, i am confident i will eventually have the most important part of that which is a family of my own. and a husband who loves me unconditionally even when i just woke up and my hair is crazy and i have no make-up on. yeah, that too.