to be honest, i totally miss the glamorous life of a new relationship. feeling excited about whether he is going to kiss me, touching up my makeup and making sure i looked thin and cute whenever he called to say he was coming over, his attentiveness and excessive displays of PDA, the cute nicknames, always holding hands and always cuddling and always hoping the text is from him. i gotta admit, i still try to look pretty on date nights and make little surprises like special dinners that take forever to prepare and saying "i love you" when it seems unexpected. but alas, i can tell i have turned into boring old aubrey. but then, i suppose we trade these things for a deeper understanding of each other, security, loyalty, and tolerance of emerging follies. just some thoughts.